Trying to be Productive

For the first time ever I have a busy summer ahead of me. Usually, I spend two months doing almost nothing. I could list off all the stuff I have to do this summer but that would just be boring and pointless so here's the important stuff. I have to try and be productive. This is actually a very tricky thing in the summer because I have to self-manage myself. I don't have a set schedule like school so it's easier to slack off.

For instance today I've dedicated the whole day to finishing the course I'm doing which is more than enough time to do it. I worked good and hard for about an hour and got to be 3/4 of the way done but then I got trapped in a pit of procrastination that I've yet to climb out of. See my course shows me how many pages I have to do for each chapter and when I opened up the last chapter it told me I had over 20 pages to do which is way more than the other chapters. I got intimidated by this and decided to take a break which seems to be endless now. Even though I have nothing else to do, I just can't make myself work on the course. I'd honestly rather sit in my room doing nothing in complete silence than finish it. It's awful because I know I have to do it at some point but I'm just not in the mood to be productive so I just won't do it. Why do I make things so hard for myself????

creds to Chibird, her art is really cute