Seriously Why Am I Scared?

A couple of weeks ago I got invited to a Christmas party and tonight is finally the night of the event. Although I know it's just going to be a fun gathering with my friends, I can't help but feel nervous. I'm kinda having that feeling where even though I want to go I'm also scared to go. It's something I experience often and I've learnt that if I just push past that feeling I'll be fine. If I don't go I know I would feel bad and regret it later so I'm trying to assure myself everything is fine and that I'll have a good time.

We are also doing a secret santa thing that makes me really nervous. I've already bought the present and thankfully I'm close with the person I bought it for so I don't have to worry too much about her not liking it. The part I'm nervous about is that I don't know what type of secret santa it is. Is it just you get a secret present and later you're told who bought it for you or do you have to guess who bought it for you? I really hope I don't have to guess because that makes me really nervous because I'm horrible at guessing.

I know this is all irrational worrying and that everything will be fine but I'm just nervous right now. I'm sure I'll come home tonight and be super glad that I went. So for now I'll end this with a merry christmas/other winter holiday in case I don't make another post before christmas.