I've had five years in a row that were just awful. During those years I was becoming a teenager and thought everyone was going through the same stuff I was. But, I was a lot more unhappy than most people. Not to the degree that it had a big impact on my life but it was just a long feeling of disappointment with my life and how things happened.
It was about a year ago that I was able to escape feeling that way. It still comes back but I don't let it drag me down anymore. I look back now and I can't believe how much time I wasted sacrificing my happiness because I cared too much about what other people thought. During those five years, I barely grew as a person whereas in this past year I feel like I've grown so much. Not to say things have been easy but I'm slowing learning how to deal with the tough stuff. Whether it was the death of my grandma, being fired from a job after three days, or struggling to learn to drive, I've tried not to let the struggles of life get me down.
I'm nowhere near perfect or anywhere close to the person I want to be, but I've finally started taking steps forward. I'm trying to keep a positive spin on my life. I'm learning a lot about life and overcoming my fears. Of course, there are still people who try to pull me down but I've realized how little they really mean in my life. If someone insults me or something I like, so what? I get over it, it's not like I'm going to change myself to fit the ideals of someone I don't even like. Overall, I'm dedicating a lot more time to things I enjoy and that make me feel happy. I don't know if it's just me but I feel like if I wasn't doing the things I love then my whole life would be a waste.
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