The Inevitability of Growing Up

Even though I'm still a teenager and I don't have to grow up right now, I know that it's going to happen soon. Before I know it I'll be able to drive a car by myself, I'll be in my last year of high school, and I'll be applying for university. All of those things scare the crap out of me despite how much I'm looking forward to them. I'm constantly stuck between wanting to grow up and never wanting to grow up. The sad thing is that I know I'll never be a kid again. I'm going to grow up, get a job, have a family, and live the normal adult life. I have no choice about that. Whether I like it or not, I'll grow up. I'll have to cook all my meals myself, drive myself everywhere, and be responsible for all the aspects of my life.When I was younger I couldn't wait to grow up but now that I'm getting closer and closer I wish I would have enjoyed being a kid more. To be completely honest I don't think I'll ever fully grow up. I'll be one of those annoying adults that dances around their house, sings in the car, and acts incredibly goofy whenever they can. Just because I'm going to grow up doesn't mean I have to lose all the fun childlike parts of my personality.