It's been a while since I've had a boyfriend, which I'm sure you know since I mention it all the time (I'm pathetic) but yeah for a long time I was just in a place where I didn't really see the point of a boyfriend and thus didn't really want one. Now, however, I'm starting to really want one only I'm terrible with guys.
Example 1: I sat next to a guy all year long and even though I liked him, I never said anything to him. Not even a simple hi for an entire year!
Example 2: I was at the bank and there was a cute guy that went in at the same time as me. I kinda felt him check me out but instead of doing anything like I don't know looking at him and smiling instead I just stared at the wall and tried my hardest not to look at him. *facepalm*
Example 3: I was at the grocery store and there was this really cute guy working there. When I bought my snacks we talked a little bit and kinda flirted. It was the opportunity I'd waited for. However, instead of you know asking for his name or his number, I said goodbye and left.
Now, what do you get from these three very different interactions? I'm incredibly awkward. Not only do I refuse to make the first move but I also do things to prevent him from making a move ie. avoiding eye contact. My best friend tells me all the time that I need to be more assertive and make the first move but I'm just too scared. I used to think after having a boyfriend I would be great with guys...nope. I think I'm just doomed to single awkwardness.
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