As it gets closer and closer to summer, I'm becoming a bit delusional. I think I'm putting a bit too much pressure on summer and I have way too many plans. I keep thinking about all the things I want to try, like writing a good novel, starting a good youtube channel, drawing good pictures, etc. The good may seem unnecessary but I've done all those things before and this time I want to create things I'm actually proud of. While I'm in the creative mood it would probably be a good idea to fix up this blog as it's become a bit of a mess (well it's always been a mess but that's beside the point) and I'd like it to also be something I'm proud of. I'm thinking maybe plan out my posts instead of just randomly typing and posting my thoughts. I also want to spend a lot of time relaxing and doing cliche summer things such as going to the beach, going to the lake, wearing bikinis all the time, eating popsicles, and doing on weekend trips.
Most of all, my strangest thought has to do with my boyfriend. He'll be moving here in two months and I'm really excited about it but my brain is a bit confused. For some reason, my thoughts seem to imply that I need to make this summer the best one possible because I won't see him again after that. My boyfriend is moving here for good so I'm not sure why I can't wrap my head around the fact that he won't be leaving after a couple of months. I guess I haven't really come to terms with the fact that we will actually be able to have a normal relationship because the whole time I've known he we have been long distance. I'm sure the adjustment will go well but it's oddly scary to transition from a long distance couple to a "regular" couple.
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