Baby Obsessed

For my entire life, there has only been one thing I've always been absolutely sure I wanted to do, have kids. It's never been a societal pressure thing or an expectation, I just really want to be a mom someday. It's great that some women don't want to have kids and want to focus on having a career or traveling but that's never been me. I mean if it were possible I'd love to be a housewife. I don't ever admit that I'd like being a housewife because I feel like people would look down on me for it. Like they would think I have no goals or aspirations and just want to live off my husband. I just really enjoy doing hobbies and cooking and organizing things so I feel like I'd be a good housewife. In reality, I'd probably just be a housewife while my kids are young and once they start school I'd either go back to work or, in an ideal world, work from home. Basically, I'm just a homebody. 

Anyway getting back to the original topic of wanting kids, I've been baby obsessed for as long as I can remember. I always loved babysitting because kids are so cute. I also want to find a part-time job at some point where I can be a camp leader or a daycare worker or something involving kids because I love them so much. The bad thing about being baby crazy is having to be realistic. I mean I really want to have a baby but I'm smart enough to know that doing that while I'm 20 and still in university is a terrible idea. I was just as baby crazy as I am now when I was 16 and again I had to remind myself that I was much too young because the thing about having a baby is that I want to do it right. I want to be in a loving marriage, with a place of my own, a career I enjoy, and savings to provide for the baby. I want to give my kids the absolute best life possible which is what I remind myself everytime I think, "It would be really fun to have a baby right now."