Wow I Was Such a Bad Person

Recently I was reading through my old journals for entertainment. As I read through them there was some stuff about my ex-boyfriend. Last night I was mainly just having fun reading passages from when I was thirteen to sixteen. It was funny because in one entry back before I dated him I was talking about how I had a crush on him then I completely forgot about him and talked about someone else in the next entry. There wasn't very much around the time we dated because I never did anything back then so I was really bad at writing consistently.

Anyway, the reason for this post's title is what I realized today as I was going through the journals again. There was one time about a year after we broke up that I had texted him and told him I still liked him only for him to reject me. Turns out that was actually an insensitive thing for me to do. On December 10th I wrote about finding out him and his girlfriend had broken up. On December 23rd I told him that I still liked him. Less than two weeks after him and his girlfriend broke up I tell him I still like him? I was awful. How could I do that? I'm sure he was still dealing with the break up at that point and I just decide it's the perfect time to tell him how I felt. Wow, just wow.

Lesson learned that I actually need to consider other people before I do things. Honestly, I guess that means that I didn't really like him then. They say that if you truly like someone you consider their feelings before your own. I didn't even think of him so I obviously didn't like him as much as I thought I did. Turns out it was a good thing I was rejected. I guess everything works out how it should. But wow how could I be so dense?