Friends

To be honest I always feel bad about myself because I don't have a lot of friends. I have this idea in my head that everyone else has dozens of friends and I'm a loser because I don't. I hate being in public places without a friend because I feel like I look pathetic. It seems like everyone else has a great social life and it's just me who doesn't.

The big thing is that in these insecurities I'm not even thinking about myself at all. I'm the type of person who likes to keep to myself. I want to have friends to go out and have fun with but I don't crave socialization like other people do. Sometimes I feel bad about never having gone to a party or anything like that but in actuality, I have no interest in those sorts of things. I like to talk to people but I don't like approaching people first. I want people to like me but I don't really care if they don't.

The reason I'm talking about all this is because I've kinda realized that I was rushing the whole making friends at university thing. I guess I felt like I was behind everyone else since I live off campus. To be honest I'm actually quite happy with how things have been going. I think I need to accept that I'm doing the best I can and just take things easy instead of freaking people out with my need to make friends fast. I've made one new friend so far which is good. I shouldn't be comparing myself to others. The best thing to do would just be to relax and let things naturally happen.