I'm officially done high school. On Thursday I go in to pick up my report card then I'll never have to set foot in that school again, although it won't be possible to go back since the school's being pushed over this summer. I have to praise myself and the rest of my grad class for living through two years of construction. I know the younger grades had to deal with it as well but at least they get to go to our new school, we never even get to see what the inside looks like. I don't really care honestly I'm just glad to be done.
My plans for this summer started off with looking for a summer job but honestly I'm not sure I care about that anymore. It would be nice to get a job but it's been over a week since I did my big applying day and I've heard nothing back. I could go apply more but I'm kinda enjoying just doing nothing... this is why I'm worried about myself in the future. But I have four years of university before I have to set out into the real world so I think I can be stupid and irresponsible for now. I'm sure I'll mature when I need to. I mean I've spent all this time preparing myself for university I need time to prepare myself before I set out for a job and I definitely wont settle like I did last time.
It's kinda strange to have so much free time after spending the past two weeks hardcore studying for my finals. I put more effort into my classes this year than I ever have before so it's even weirder to have worked hard for ten months and to have a break now. I really want to cherish this time and by cherish I mean go to the beach as often as possible and wear summer clothes all the time. Seeing my friends would nice too, well having a boyfriend would also be nice but we can't get everything we want, I'll settle with just seeing friends.
Okay this is random but I just thought of this dream I had a while back which is really freaking me out. It was about university. It was the first day and I walked into class to see that everyone in my high school was there and it was just a repeat of high school. Maybe this wouldn't scare most people but it would be so disappointing to survive four years with people who barely knew you existed then to go to this new place expecting a chance to start over only to have to repeat what you just did and spend another four years with people who don't notice you.
Anyway, I'm happy to have freedom. This post was a lot looser then what I usually write but I'll just label this as ramble again. It seems like everything I write lately is a ramble. Oh maybe I can spend this summer writing my novel idea and that can be my summer job. I probably won't ever publish it but then at least I'll feel like I did something good with my time. Sorry, I meant to end this post, I'm done rambling now.
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