I Didn't Want To See You

When my mom asks me to go with her to a movie usually I say no because I get embarrassed when I see people my age with their friends and I'm with my mom. But today, without thinking much, I said yes. The universe then decided to mess with me.

We were almost late to the movie so we were rushing to the theater. Outside I saw a small group of people who I recognized. I couldn't see his face since he was turned away from me but I knew who it was instantly. I was hoping if I didn't look at him it would turn out to be someone else. While waiting in line I was trying to be casual when I noticed my mom kept looking behind us, that's when I couldn't deny it was him anymore. From what I noticed there were four of them counting him, two of them were girls. I could play dumb and pretend he was just out with friends but I know it was a date. I didn't hear very much but from the sounds of it either he was being set up or he was setting up his friend. I was praying that he was there to see another movie. I was so freaked out by seeing him that I spilled the popcorn once we got into the theater. The four of them walked into the same movie as me and I had to sit there for two hours and pretend not to know. I couldn't focus on the movie because I was too busy calming myself down. Once the movie ended I left right away and didn't see him again.

Part of me kinda wished I had talked to him or at least known if he noticed me but I was too shocked seeing him there to do anything other than pretending he wasn't there. Before today I was 100% over him finally. The first thing I thought when he walked into the theater was, "I guess he was my first love." I didn't ever think I was in love with him but there must be a reason I can't get over him. I was completely fine and then I saw him and I couldn't control my emotions. It hurt so much having to sit in a theater with him while he was on a date with someone else. I will not make any move towards him as I just want to be over these feelings but I can't deny he was my first love anymore. So yeah the universe decided to torture me by making me see my ex-boyfriend on a date and then having to sit through a movie in the same room as him. I really wish things like this wouldn't happen, especially when I'm almost completely done with him.