I'm Over You

As pathetic as it is, it has taken me three years to get to this point. It seemed that during those years no matter how hard I tried, you always showed up. Mostly I heard about you through other's conversations but sometimes I used to run into you in the halls. I blame that for the fact that it took three years to have no romantic interest in you whatsoever. In my last post, I talked about running into you and I labeled you as my first love. Now just a couple of days later I've come to realize a fact, I don't know you anymore. You are no longer the sweet innocent fifteen-year-old boy who I shared my first kiss with. For a long time, I held onto the idea that you hadn't changed from that person but now I know you aren't him anymore. Just like I'm not the girl I was back then. Both of us have changed and grown up. I will always have pleasant feelings towards you since you were once a very important person to me but I no longer have any desire to be with you. I'm so relieved to finally have my feelings figured out since it caused me stress not understanding my feelings towards you. Now I realize that I get nervous around you in the same way I get nervous around old friends I lost touch with. You, like them, are a person I used to be close with and now that we aren't close it's awkward to see each other. I don't feel nervous around you because I like you, I feel nervous because you are my ex. It's as simple and easy to explain as that.

I'm over you.