Being Crazy About Someone

I really miss the times when I was so into someone that I was filled with joy all the time and everything seemed so amazing. I miss staying up late and texting someone all night with a big smile on my face. I miss hugs that you never want to end. I miss missing someone even after just seeing them. I miss so much about the times when I was just crazy into someone. To me, there are 3 different versions about being crazy about someone. Number 3 being the one I like the best and the one I'm missing right now.

1. Being crazy about someone who doesn't like you back: also known as the horror of unrequited love. This is one that I experienced a lot when I was younger and I would become crazy about any cute guy who smiled at me. If I experience it now I either don't care or it drives me insane until I don't care. I really don't have much to say about this version other than it sucks.

2. Being crazy about someone who likes you back but the craziness doesn't last. Aka a relationship that wasn't meant to be. At first, you're really into them. You have those awesome late night chats and warm hugs but then the feeling kinda goes away. If you're in a relationship this one sucks a lot because once the craziness goes away you're usually left with nothing but boringness. If you're not in a relationship it kinda just ends which is nice because you don't have to pretend like the craziness is still there.

3. Being crazy about someone and having the feelings last. This is the one that people write novels and songs about. It's the one where you find yourself missing them all the time even after you just saw them. The one where you would do anything just to see them. This is the rare and precious one. The one that will change your whole view on love.

To be honest I've had a weird experience where it's basically version 3 except I didn't know what his feelings towards me were. The reason why I consider it to be version 3 and not version 1 is because we were good friends and I was almost positive he liked me as well but I never confessed my feelings. I'm still in contact with him and I still have those feelings for him but it just got weird between us because we drifted apart because of life stuff. If you're wondering what prompted this post, I was just remembering old conversations and memories. I'm also quite conflicted about my version 3 guy but that's not really a story to be told anytime soon. I'm just missing old times and missing being crazy about someone who seems to be crazy about me as well.

quote dedicated to my #3 guy