New Year

This year I've held a lot of regrets but I'd like to make things better from now on.

Firstly, today is the last day I will ever think of my ex in a romantic way. I've been over him for a while now, but there are still times now and again that I think about him but I vow to stop that completely in 2016. There's no point since there's no way we will ever get back together and I honestly don't even think I want to get back together with him. I'm just lonely.

Secondly, I will take my university schooling seriously. Last semester I underestimated university and found it next to impossible to make myself study. After seeing how quickly the term goes by, I think I'm capable of committing myself completely to my course work next term. The problem was that I'm used to a linear system where I have a year to complete my course instead of semester system where you only have a couple of months, because of this I always thought I had more time than I actually had. However, I vow to do better from now on because I know I'm capable of more than this.

Thirdly, I will pay attention to my health. Generally, I have a good immune system so I don't get sick often but I still wouldn't call myself healthy. In the new year, I'd like to work out at least once a week and I want to stop skipping meals. When I'm at the university for classes, I feel weird about bringing food from home to eat and I don't have enough money to buy food every day so I tend to skip eating. I know this is terrible for my health so I'd like to stop it.

Lastly, I will find a reason to be happy. Whether it's hanging out with friends more or going on walks to watch the sunset, I need to find some way for me to be happy. This year I haven't felt sad but I haven't felt happy either, I felt more like I was numb. Happiness is so important and I would like to experience it again.

Lesson Learnt: Allergic Reaction

Frequently I will use sheet masks for my skin. Usually, the ones I use are either from forever 21 or a local pharmacy. Despite the fact that I use cheap ones, I've never had a problem before. Today I tried a new mask that I bought at Walmart and the results weren't so nice. In case you are curious, it's the freeman feeling beautiful mask for dry skin. I wouldn't recommend it though, especially if you have sensitive skin.

Near the end of the time I had the mask on, my face began to feel hot but I didn't realize anything was wrong until after I took off the mask and my face completely burnt up. When it didn't go away after a few moments I looked in the mirror and it looked as thought I had a sunburn. Currently, my face is hot to touch and red. It's only been a couple of minutes so I'm not too worried, I'm sure the allergic reaction will go away.

What I have learned from this experience is to be more careful with the products I use. I'm well aware of my sensitive, dry skin but I haven't had any issues with it in a long time. Today came as a warning to me that I still need to be careful about the products I use.

In case you get worried about my allergic reaction, I'm handling it fine. If it gets worse or doesn't go away I will go see the doctor.

Here's a lobster because I currently look like one

How I'm Going to Make Myself Happy

Maybe it's because it's exam session or maybe it's the lack of direction I have but I haven't been feeling happy with my life lately. I've been putting a lot of stress on myself to get the required grades to be considered for a biology co-op however since I'm mainly doing required courses this year (ie not biology) it's been quite hard for me to do well. I have also been questioning my decision to do science since I've been missing writing.

Today after having a bit of a breakdown I figured out how to make myself happy. It turns out that I don't have to make a choice between science and writing. After a bit of researching, I figured out my university offers a minor in professional writing that I can do along side my biology major. I'm feeling great right now since this seems to be exactly the kind of thing I want to do with my education. Doing all biology or all writing isn't something I want to do but now that I figured out I can do both, I think I'm on my way to becoming happy with the direction my life is in.